I sat listening to music on my Itunes today. Various songs came on and didn't really afect me, but then Destiny from KAtherine McPhee came on and I started to cry. I went to look at the lyrics to figure it out. I guess I jsut feel so much like I have no one, no one is behind me. I am always behind everyone ele and I support everyone and make them feel better, but where is the person that always stood by my side and was truly there for me.
"You were always by my side
That you believed in me was enough reason whyI didn't stop,
didn't give upeven if i sometimes lost hope"
So many people here in Iowa have all these friends that they have known since kindergarten, high school etc and they are still friends with them. I have one friend I can sometimes talk to and that's it. Most of the time I can't even talk to him. I have been pretty emotional lately anyway. So much has gone on with Nate and now I am not even seeing him. I deleted my SO blog and keep planing on redoing it, but don't know how all that will look. I can't talk to anyone about the SO because they don't get it. I think I need to start a Parents of SO Support group. I can't seem to find one out there so maybe I need to start one so we all have someone else to talk to. Sigh. It is just so frustrating.
Anyway, I better get back to work. I have taken WAY too much time off recently and need to get back down to business. I am two choices away for a new logo and then soon moving onto the dating sites. Maybe I will add a blog to the business site and then all the members will know what is going on with the sites.
Ok, well, I am better now. I have cried my little cry, sobbed my sob and wrote it all down to bore you half to death. Back to work. On my own...sigh.
