Saturday, June 12, 2021

Day 1 The Wanderlust Cancer Journey

Let me start by saying I had no expectations for this day only desires and hopes wishes for how the day may go but aside from that I just wanted to let the day happen as it happened ...

I woke too honey pants cuddling with me and sharing some morning time. We got up and had breakfast and then once I got ready we started packing the car. 

 I didn't really have much for the morning time just one of my silly frappuccino drinks from Starbucks that everyone teases me isn't coffee but it's enough of a jolt for me and I like the taste because it reminds me of chocolate however I don't like chocolate which is silly that I like the flavor of these coffees. 

I gave Dixie a heads up when left off was and she came over while I was packing the car and HP was bringing items down to me. 

HP went up to get the last of the items so Dixie and I set our farewells and hugged and like steps that we are started sniffling and she said that she better go before we both start crying.

I pulled out of the garage and ask Ben to take a look at all my lights and of course my left headlamp was out right before I was ready to leave. So I called Colorado Tire and Service and ask them if they could fix my headlamp right away so I could get on the road. They worked it out with me so I said my goodbyes to HP hugging him and kissing him extras even though I hugged and kissed him upstairs before we started packing I feel like when you're heading out on a trip on the road and you never know what's going to happen you can never have too many hugs and kisses.

Dude and I expected to leave from there so we both went and I went to the Colorado Tire and Service. When I got there I put dude in his new little backpack that I bought him and he did so well but I did remember to give him a little Rescue remedy for pets before I left though I think he almost would have enjoyed the trip more had I not but I'll get to that later.

Like a champ they fixed my headlamp right away and they did it out front because I had my car so packed I asked them not to move the seat and the guy was over 6 ft so he said if it's okay with you I'll just fix it out front which I thought was funny and hilarious but totally fine.

Then as we were going on the road I remembered I had one drop off to whole foods so I would let HP know and head on my way but he threw me for a loop when he told me that I had two packages one from Steven and Ann and one from Wendy so I told him I would swing back by since I was going to be nearly right in that area and it was a good thing I did I was able to pick up the packages but moreover I was able to reshift some of my items and realize that the basket I had in the back was not going to work for this trip so I gave it to HP and ran up to go potty while he watched dude in the car and then I gave HP more hugs and kisses and then left.

I went to my friend's house next and joined her on her patio with my kitty cat well she gave me an amazing breakfast burrito and some orange juice and we talked and chatted then she shared with me some basil and cilantro and then gave me a little gift from her mother and herself which was a crocheted headband and a beautiful mala necklace that was so charged with love it made me cry.

I then proceeded on the road to Fairplay and unfortunately hit a great deal of traffic with it being a Saturday a beautiful day everyone on the road and then someone decided they had to move a whole house which of course slows the road when it's only one lane going down a mountain and up a mountain.

When I got here my friend Beth was with her neighbor Sherry and having lunch once I got dude situated with his kitty litter food and water I sat down and had lunch with them once Sherry left I finished unpacking.

Once I had most everything upstairs I started hunting in the vinyls for what records I would like to play 

 So far it's been a fun day and evening just relaxing listening to music and getting a little high enjoying life feeling at peace and totally chilling I went outside missed the sunset but got to look at the stars and see all the beauty All around Me from morning until night it was a good day to have a good day

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Since the day I made the decision to stop treatment

 Since the day I made the decision to stop treatment, butterflies fill my tummy with happiness, the air seems cleaner and crisper, my heart dances inside my chest and my eyes and ears have begun to hear and see life differently as though it is thru a different lens. 

I have been sitting for a new puppy Koby in my Petsitting biz.

Life seems fuller.

Love is more intense.

Life is peaceful.


Everything is better.


This was the best decision I have made in my life in years.


I am so damn happy and so much at peace.

Friday, June 04, 2021

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Come follow along my journey of living my wanderlust and wandering this great big world! Instead of conventional cancer treatment for my Stage4 Metastized Colorectal Cancer, I am hitting the open road. It is time to Live my Best Life. It is time for me. It is time to Live Life on My Terms. It is time...


It's gonna be a wild ride!


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A Mindful Cancer Journey: Live is Meant to Be Lived...




This is my 3rd metastasis with Colorectal Cancer. I am fully now Stage IV Advanced Metastisized Colorectal Cancer. While I am well now, no matter what I do with current medical practices I will never really "get cured", so to speak. This has thus prompted my decision to end all regular conventional treatment. I find it to be the most mindful decision I can make. To be me. Unapologetically me. Live life on my terms. I find it to be the most mindful thing I can do. Radical Self Love. I am enough. I will be enough. Whatever is to happen is to happen. I will be trying alternatives but in reality, none of us ever know when our time is up. There is no magical device that we can plug into that gives us the exact date. Would we really want to know anyway? Some might say yes. Others would say no. 


Now it is my time to Just Be. Just be me. Just Live. Just live my life. Now is my time to be the most mindful I can be. From my course through Palouse Mindfulness, I learned and adapted so many tools to my cancer battles. RAIN is my favorite. STOP is another one. HALT is the other. These are tools to help me maneuver these rough waters of my life. What he does is so important to the world. I feel that far too often the "so-called gurus" are not really gurus if they always have their hand out asking for the almighty dollar if you want the information that will really help you in life. He is like me, he offers it freely. In our IT house, we call that "Open Source Mindfulness." Open to all. 

I have shared my teachings with others through Toastmasters and other speeches I have given since I took and graduated from the course. It has always been well received. Whether others said they came to Palouse Teachings because of my sharing, I do not know nor really care, but I hope they have. I hope others recognize how powerful and wonderful it is to have this information and I hope they share it with others as well. I pray they become the Ripples for Palouse mindfulness and ripple through their lives to others. Allow themself to be the butterfly to carry the message on their wings and create the Butterfly Effect. 

I am becoming my own butterfly. I am working only second book as well as plan to document my journey. I am hitting the open road in my Tiny Fiat that I have converted to a Tiny Camper. My cat and I are hitting the open road. I am now only speaking my truth but the truth of my journey so that others may not only participate in my journey but hopefully gain insights from my learnings as I have gained from you.

If you choose to follow along, Subscribe here. Follow here. Many have asked me to document my journey and I already had that thought in mind. When thinking about where to do that, I could think of no better place than right here in the blog that started way back in 2005. This is my life. This is my life's work. My life's thoughts. My life's journey. 

There is no sense in creating a separate blog anymore. This is my life. Here on this blog. When I am gone, this will tell of my thoughts. This will tell of my life (at least since 2005). I don't mean to say that to sound morbid, merely truthful.  If you want to learn of me, read here. This blog could be a nice memoir of my life if someone wanted to compile it into a book. I give you permission to do so. Now or later. 

I am looking forward to the next chapter of my life. Maybe it is my last chapter, maybe I have many more to come. Who knows. Not I said the little red hen. :) 

Let's turn the page together and start this new chapter.

Let's live our best lives together.

Life is meant to be lived, not just endured.

Peace be unto you and your soul.

With all my love,

Xoxo Trisha Trixie







Trixie Hunter-Merrill
Faith-Based Transformation Specialist, EmpowerMentor™, The Sprinkler of Fabulousness
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