Being Here. Being Human. Day 2. Year 2020

 Being Here. Being Human.

http://www.beingherehuman.com

Day Two

Telling stories remakes the world!

Today we can begin to make the space.

We aren’t leaving ourselves or one another behind.

What story are you telling?
What world are you remaking?
What one thing do you want to name today?

I am telling the story of an overcomer, a survivor, a soldier a warrior.

I tell the stories others are afraid to share and listeners are not used to hearing.

I tell stories about hard things

I tell the stories os the power of positivity

I tell stories about being authentic and real.

I tell stories about how I create the life I love and how others can too.

I tell the stories about advocacy, patient, or otherwise.

Through my stories,

I am remaking a world into a place of love

I am remaking a world into a place of acceptance.

I am remaking a world of awareness.

I am remaking a world of Compassion, Empathy, Tolerance, Resiliency, Evolving

What one thing do I want to name today?

Today I name myself as a powerful Master Manifestor of Miracles!

~Xoxo Trisha Trixie

Being Here. Being Human: Day 1. Year 2020.

Being Here. Being Human.

http://www.beingherehuman.com

Today is the first day of a new online project I am doing by Being Here. Being Human. https://www.beingherehuman.com/

SEPTEMBER 7 TO SEPTEMBER 18: MAGICAL REALISM W/ ISABEL ABBOTT

A writing workshop for those living with disability and/or chronic illness

Two weeks where we will write through the intersections of disability, accessibility, the sick/well binary of the disordered and diagnoses, the mundane and naming what is real, hybridity and living in spaces between, celebrating the small things, care, and creation, mourning and making a world where we leave none of us behind.

A writing space by us
About us
For us

(If you want to join I am not sure if they are still taking people)

https://www.beingherehuman.com/writing-workshop

Day 1- For today, what do you need to write, about you and for you?

What realities pass through your head without any other consideration?

We have these next days to write for ourselves. This time is for you, about you. And you know you best. You, the subject of your own words and writing and life. You know what you need for something to be accessible. For something to be for you and about you. You know all of what comes from the hours spent alone, and from the learning and the unlearning, that happen in these unruly bodies and disordered brains. You. And in this you, us. Together, we are allowed to bring it back to this, each in our own way.

“I paint myself because I am so often alone and because I am the subject I know best.”
― Frida Kahlo

The realities that pass through my mind that I have accepted are...

• The reality that I have more brain fog from all my chemo than I realized.
• The reality that this brain fog is limiting to my daily life and tasks.
• The reality that I will always be misunderstood by someone and I accept that
• The reality that I am a direct communicator
• The reality that I am real, raw, and hones to a fault
• The reality that I am authentic and that scares some people
• The reality that I am"too much" for some people and...
• The reality that if I am " too much" then those are not my people
• The reality that I am a lightworker, a star seed, a healer, a shaman, an indigo child
• The reality that I am good at what I do, though saying that out loud is often taken as Egotistical
• The reality that I can handle "more" in most situations than most people
• The reality that I am a hard worker and a smart worker
• The reality that because of all my pains, cancer, ailments, disorders, etc I tend to have a much higher tolerance for pain than I used to. 
• The reality that because I have a high tolerance, I am often misjudged or diagnosed because others have shaped their disbelief, thus they think the same applies to me
• The reality that my body is flawed. Degenerative disc in neck and back, Hashimoto's, GI issues because of my colon cancer, as well as two cancers have severely altered my body.
• The reality that we all are perfectly imperfect in our own way.
• The reality that others have not ever walked a journey like I have so they will never understand and I need to quit expecting them to.
• The reality that my tribe may be small but powerful, loving, and accepting.
• The reality that I give more than I receive
• The reality that I am unique
• The reality that I have body dysmorphia and have a hard time loving my body because of this, but also the reality that I struggle to love my body because I often feel like my body is attacking me or out to get me after having cancer twice and so many side effects and issues from the chemo than I care to mention
• The reality that life is precious to me because I truly know there are no guarantees in life
• The reality that if I desire to change I need to be the change
• The reality that I am a good human
• The reality that I look at  things, life, etc with a kaleidoscope vision
• Lastly, the reality that I am a spiritual being having a human experience and not the other way around

I am sure if I stood here, at my standing desk longer, I could come up with more, but my intuition has stopped me here at this point in my writing.

I am grateful for this challenge and appreciate the writing prompts to help us along.

I am thankful to Isabel Abbot for sharing her gifts with us so that we may share our gifts with others.

Peace Love and Happiness

Trixie <3

I speak about hard things

I speak about hard things.

Things that others hide and shelter away. They do this because society has told them not to allow others in, you'll get hurt, not to show your true self, because you will get made fun of, not tell others what REALLY is going on because either no one will care or they will tease or mock you. Fear far too often rears its ugly head.

Well, I refuse to be silent anymore!!

I refuse to be silent about my life, my habits, and my traits, my illnesses, and disorders, my medical issues.

I refuse to be silent about my beliefs, I refuse to be silent about my political feelings, I refuse to be silent while my black brothers and sisters are just trying to be treated like everyone else, I refuse to allow my dear mother earth to be a victim of our humanity, I refuse to sit by and watch loving creatures be slaughtered for our consumption, I refuse to sit by while hatred or nastiness spews out of the mouths of others only to tear them down to lift themself up, I refuse to stand by to anything anymore...

mostly, I refuse to allow others to silence others anymore.

Yes, I will be that speaker that speaks about hard things because we need to hear about those hard things to learn how to overcome, to move forward, to heal. We need to know others have gone through what we have gone through.

An old adage we often hear is "Misery loves Company. is true. We prefer not to suffer alone. We desire and yearn for the company and the understanding of others. We need to know we are heard. We heal from that connection, to know someone else out there understands what we are going through. It bonds us to each other.

Through my speaking career, I have learned there are others like me. The more I spoke, the more people came up to me afterward and said "Thank you for sharing that. I too have been struggling through or have struggled through that and It's nice to know that someone else has too.

I decided to start speaking about hard things one day out of the blue. I felt very much like stopping the world so I could get off. After a while I found myself saying to myself "I can't be the only one! I just can't!" I can't tell you when that day was or what was the final catalyst, but I will tell you, every time I share something real, raw, authentic and vulnerable about myself, I always end up reading, hearing, or talking to someone who says "I have empathy for where you have been" and I reply, "That is the gift I have been given in this life, to acquire empathy for the hard things in life so that I could say to you,' I have empathy for where you have been."<3

My book is called Falling to Fabulous: A Phoenix Rising because I truly feel that I fell.,.. for you. I rose from the ashes...for you.<3

None of us have a guarantee in life when we will go. Have faced cancer twice was like facing a hungry lion barely escaping within an inch of its grasp. All those things you think are so important, suddenly aren't. The things you look back on your life, should not be regrets. You realize how precious life is yes, but I came out of it also realizing how precious humanity was. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

I want my time left on this earth, for however long that will be, to be a wonderful experience full of peace, love, and happiness. I want to help my fellow human beings.

If that means sharing and speaking about those hard things, then that is what I will do. And when I am gone, the world will look back and hopefully see a Legacy of love in my wake. <3

2020 Summed Up

Guess this about sums up 2020 so far: WOW it is only half way through JULY!
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Dear Diary 2020 Edition,
In ❄️ January, 🔥 Australia caught on fire. I don’t even know if that fire was put out, because we straight up almost went to war with Iran 🇮🇷 . We might actually still be almost at war with them 🤔. I don’t know, because 👩 Jen Aniston and 👨🏻 Brad Pitt spoke to one another at an awards 🏆 show and everyone flipped the crap out 😲, but then there was this thing happening in 🦇 🇨🇳 China, then 👑 Prince Harry and Megan ✌🏼 peaced out of the Royal family, and there was the whole impeachment trial 👩‍⚖️ , and then corona virus 🦠 showed up in the US ✔️“officially,” but then 🏀 Kobe died 😭and UK 🇬🇧 peaced out of the European Union.
In February, 🌽 Iowa crapped 💩 itself with the caucus results and the president was acquitted and the 👩🏼‍💼Speaker of the House took ten. Whole. years. to rip up a speech , but then The👨‍🔬 🌎WHO decided to give this virus a name COVID-19, which confused 🤔some really important people 👔 in charge of, like, our lives, into thinking there were 18 other versions before it, but then Harvey Weinstein was found guilty👨🏻‍⚖️, and 🇺🇸 Americans started asking if Corona beer 🍺 was safe to drink🤦🏻‍♀️, and everyone on Facebook became a doctor 👨‍⚕️ who just knew the 🤒flu like killed way more people than COVID 1 through 18.
In March, stuff hit the fan👿. Warren dropped out of the presidential race and Sanders was like Bernie or bust 💥, but then Italy 🇮🇹 shut its whole country down 🚷, and then COVID Not 1 through 18 officially become what everyone already realized, a 😱pandemic and then a nationwide state of emergency 🆘was declared in US 🇺🇸 , but it didn’t really change anything, so everyone was confused or thought it was still just a flu 💁🏻‍♀️, but then COVID Not 18 was like ya’ll not taking me seriously? 💡 I’m gonna infect the one celebrity everyone loves and totally infected Tom Hanks👨🏻, get y’all to close all of the schools so y’all can 🙏🏼 appreciate teachers 👩‍🏫 for once (because you can’t teach them anything other than how to use a touch screen🤦🏻‍♀️ ) close down all of salons so you can’t get your 💇‍♂️ hair or your nails done💅 , everyone had to work from home and attend Zoom meetings in their underwear. The 📉 DOW took a crap 💩 on itself, and most of us still don’t understand why the stock market is so important or even a thing 🤔 (I still don’t), We were then all introduced to 🐅 Tiger King and the ONE thing we can all agree on this year , 👍🏼Carol totally killed her husband⚰️ ..... whacked him! And then Netflix was like you’re welcome, and we all realized there was no way we were washing our hands enough in the first place because all of our hands are now dry and gross and were all searching for lotion now.
In 🌧 April, Bernie finally busted✌🏼 himself out of the presidential race 🏃 , but then NYC 🗽became the set of The Walking Dead 💀 and we learned that no one has face masks 😷, ventilators, or toilet paper, or THE FREAKING SWIFFER WET JET LIQUID , and by now our 🦁outgrowth is showing, so there’s a shortage on 📦 box hair dye and all of our hair dressers are like , 😱 NO DONT DO IT!!! But, then Kim Jong-Un died, but then he came back to life … or did he? Who knows, because then the Pentagon released 🎥 videos of UFOs and nobody cared, and we were like man, it’s only April….
In 💐 May, the biblical end times kicked off , historical locust swarms, we learned of murder hornets 🐝 and realized that 2020 was the start of the Hunger Games🙈 however people forgot to let us know. people legit started to protest lockdown measures with 🔫 AR-15s, 🏀⚾️sports events were cancelled everywhere. But then people all over America finally reached a breaking point with race issues and violence. There were 🗣protests in every city🌃 ,which was confusing to some of us because people were definitely gathering in 👫crowds of more than 🖐🏼🤚🏼10 and for sure closer than 6 foot away ⬅️➡️from each other . Those people must have forgotten about the 😖pandemic called COVID Not One Through 18. Media 📺 🗞 struggled with how to 🤬focus on two important things at once, people in general struggle to focus on more than one important thing. A dead whale 🐋 was found in the middle of the Amazon rain forest 🌳 after monkeys 🐒 stole COVID 1 Through 19 from a lab 🔬 and ran off with them, and either in May or April (no one is keeping track of time now) that a giant asteroid ☄️ narrowly missed the Earth🌍.
In ☀️ June, common sense just got thrown 🤾🏼 straight out the window and somehow 😷 wearing masks became a 🏛political thing, but then everyone sort of remembered there was a pandemic, then 👨‍🔬scientists announced they found a mysterious undiscovered mass at the center of the earth, and everyone was like 🙅🏽‍♂️🙅🏻‍♀️🚧DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH IT, but then everyone took a pause to realize that people actually believed Gone With The Wind 💨 was like non-fiction, but then it was also announced that there is a strange 🛰radio signal coming from somewhere in the universe 🌌 that repeats itself every so many days 🗓 , and everyone was like 👽 DON’T YOU DARE ATTEMPT TO COMMUNICATE WITH IT‼️🚫 but then America reopened 🙌🏼from the shut down that actually wasn’t even a shut down, and so far, things have gone spectacularly .... not that great 👎🏼. All of the Karen’s came out at once, and people started tearing down 🔨 statues. Everyone is on Facebook arguing 🤼‍♀️ about masks 👃🏼, but then Florida 🏖 was like hold my beer 🍺 and let me show you how we’re number one 🥇 in all things, including new Not Corona Beer Coronavirus. Then we learned there was a massive dust cloud ☁️ coming straight at us 📍from the Sahara Desert 🐫 , which is totally normal, but this is 2020, so the 👻 ghost mummy thing is most likely in that dust cloud. We then 📚 learned of meth-gators 🐊 , and I'm like that is so not on my flipping 2020 Bingo card 😡 can we use it as the free space?? 🤷🏻 Then we learned that the Congo's worst ever Ebola 🚨 outbreak is over 😓, and we were all like, there was an Ebola outbreak that was the worse ever? 👀 ....... and don’t forget we just discovered FLYING SNAKES! 🐍, seriously! FLYING SNAKES!!!!
So here comes July…. at this point we are over it , just tell us what’s next .... 👽 Aliens? 🔱Zeus? ☄️ Asteroids? Artificial Intelligence becomes self aware? Can it just be something cool 😎 or fun for once? Maybe even a good laugh , like hahaha 😂 April Fools! We all actually wouldn’t mind that joke at this point.
Also, why didn't I know about the whale in the Amazon? Or a few other things because I just can’t keep up anymore!
But I’m sharing it because as long as we make it through 2020, I really want this to pop back up in the memories a few years from now. 🗓
Author unknown 🤷🏼‍♀️