Sunday, October 25, 2015

Being Mindfully Country Strong

As I was getting ready the other day and had Spotify on, Bubbly from Colbie Callait came on. As if that wasn't bad enough, the next song was Hey There Delilah, by Plain White T's.

Why is that "bad enough"? Because why is it when things are going good, someone starts throwing wrenches that affect your feelings? idk. hell. my step dad would say "For the halibut"

Those songs are from moments with the exbf. And no matter how mcuh I love another, I will always stop, take a quick breath when I hear those songs.

Hell, I still remember the song "Wallflowers was mine and my ex husbands song.

But it doesn't hit me like the song me and J had together. I never loved anyone before J and although J will say and believe to his dying breath I never loved him, he would be wrong.

When I have more memories than I could contain...
When I'm feeling weak...
When I'm feeling sad or down...
When I am feeling like I can't face it, the it whatever "IT" is...

I watch Country Strong. I weep a bit, I let my heart feel. I allow those feelings to come forth so they can come out. This is an act of mindfulness. Recognizing. Awareness. Allowing. Accepting. Thanking the feeling for being there. Then letting go and moving on....

The song I love the best from this movie is Stronger

"My heart never will be the same, but I keep telling myself Ill be ok..."

Life comes at us pretty fast sometimes. We barely have time to think much less feel.

Don't be afraid to fall in love. It's the only thing that matters in life. Fall in love with as many things as possible.  ~ CountryStrong
What I want to say is this... don't be afraid to let yourself feel. 

Just like the quote from Country Strong I want to reiterate...

Don't be afraid to feel. Feel as many things as possible. Allow yourself to feel sadness when it comes. Acknowledge it, and let it move within you. When you hold it down and try to suffocate it, you only end up hurting yourself. Feel the sadness. Then feel the peace and calm you get once you have cried those tears. Once you have allowed your heart to feel. Once you have taken a deep breath. And you make that sigh sound, when you finally feel the release and let it go.

We must know the bitter to know the sweet.

We must know sadness to know joy.

It's all just the circle of life.



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