Showing posts with label Tree. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Tree. Show all posts

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Sub Dimensional Choice World and Universal Tree




I was thinking about the time and space between it all. Life, in its existence, or should I say, what we know of it, is all about CHOICE. CHOOSE, CHOSING, CHOICES,  which result in DECISIONS ON TOP OF DECISIONS that alter every moment and thng that we say or do. It made me wonder and I do often think about other dimensions. I believe that it is highly possible and I wouldn't doubt that this were true, that from the time you were born and COULD make decisions, that is when the sub dimensions of our life begin.

It is like those "Choose Your Own Adventure" books, which btw looking back lately, I realized how much I really adored those books and devoured their content, as if I couldn't read them fast enough and then when I DID read them so fast that there was nothing to read until the next book came out!! I think "How interesting that I loved those books so much and yet here I have adopted this belief about the choices and decisions and how the sub dimensions are made.

The belief is this:

When we make our first choice, because we were faced with our first test of "which way is the right way or which answer is the right answer or which thing I am supposed to do,  the decision we choose cuts apart in two. One of us goes into the Decision A and the other one goes to Decision B. From then as we grow and age in life those sub dimensions continue to grow and branch off into two more branches each time like a genealogy tree! (i.e. Pedigree, Family Tree, Family Generation Chart, etc)

There is a movie I really like that displays this called "Sliding Doors". They show the crooks of how each decision made by that choice branches off and the dimension shifts or changes, per say and so on and so on, etc, etc.

Each of those choices is intertwine with others choices and then it is like a massive web, all interconnected and dimensions after dimensions being made like clockwork, constantly, never ending even.

Based on each of THOSE decisions other choices are then put in front of us. I wonder sometimes if we end up crossing our paths and that is when we feel that "Dejavu" because one of us was there before and we are running into that person , like and older decision and a d a younger decisions that affects the other one, crosses paths, how that will affect the outcomes and perhaps if the choice is incorrect in the universal eyes, then we have to replay it so our higher power moves a few pieces around to make that happen.

I envision this like the movie Monsters Inc. In stead of the characters being Monsters they are decisions instead (god, this would be a great way to teach kids  or preteens about this kind of theoretical stuff  and I could see this animated or CGI even, wouldnt that be kewl if that came true!! Whoa, I just put that out there in the universe!! #SURREAL EEEEEEK!

The story would setup and explain how they intertwine in a brief beforehand descriptive and the first moment where a choice has to be made and a decision is chosen, then you see the one turn into two half's and they each go their own way. They each have a name that relates to the order of which they happened like Decision A would be the first one and we could call him Decision Adam, thus being we will have Decisions characters go up to Z and maybe as a funny could have a decisions qqqqmmmmekdkkdkfk or something like that go by, maybe it would get a rise out of the audience. They will pass each other in the halls of our brains some skateboarding through and some taking their time like a snail and we could even draw that character in that way kind of, and the would be like "Hi Betty and then she would say Hi Wally. We could follow it along and the Decisions would be like sitting on an assembly line almost or like a circuit board and moving very fast like criss crossing elevators at a department store.

There could be this whole story line to it and we cold follow certain lines to play them out and then show how the other decisions life is going?


We could also show them living on a tree and they are more like monkeys swaying from one branch to the other and one taking its time and then other at flying speed. then there is someone telling them to slow down and to let the thoughts marinate more and process more before jumping too fast into those decisions because those are the choices you are going to have to live with for the rest of your life.


Then it would be teaching them , MINDFULNESS, in a subtle, and gentle way to nourish their minds and their souls by helping them see how CRITICAL each decision REALLY is.

We could show this to teens and  show them one girl who decides to have sex and one doesn't and how each girls life is because of her decision. These could be a series of stories on like Drunk Driving, Sex, Where you fit in school, Loser, Jock, Geek and how decision prior to High School shaped what decisions you were faced with now.

Then adulthood doing the same thing.

This is life people. This is real, this IS how it works! I know this ways of thinking is called something even but I don't know what, like maybe it is called theoretical psychology or theoretical "something" and THIS is what I want to go to school for and study and learn about. Like to learn how to be more enlightened and to be able to have a platform to be able to share those theories and to learn what to do with them, goodness, that would be fabulous.

Maybe #SpaceTime , however I think it is something more, at present, I just can't put my finger on it.

Regardless, these are my beliefs.

Everyone one of us is weaving our tapestries for the life we are currently living. In THIS dimension we stay linear, though the other decisions, are affected and they morph, like this picture. The top is like the life we are living now, carefully weaved and every choice and decisions made interweaves something else into it. Then we choose, and that dimension happens.


I do believe that we also could meet that dimension again, that there are others who might be in the same dimension, like the show "Sliders"  and that there are the other parts of us in those dimensions. In this dimension, I can't eat Mushrooms and Coconuts, but somewhere in another dimension is perhaps a me who eats them all, who eats them all but only that, who eat only mushrooms, who eats only coconuts, and the list goes on.

I know as a model and someone as in the light as others, often posting Inspirational Messages with taglines and such, that many would not think that there is a #Philosophical #Theoretical person inside me, though whats funny is that THIS is who I am probably even MORE so, however, being the brain in high school was not the one getting invited to things so I think I put that person away and until this year, until faced with the life experiences that I have had and the way things happened, in addition to finding out this year that I have #Aspergers , that now I don't care and I Am truly putting myself out there and going to share more than just those inspirational messages, I am going to fully share and leave a legacy of who I am for my posterity.

#CTA #CalltoAction #QuestionandAnswer

What are YOUR thoughts on the matter? do you beleive as I do? Do you have other thoughts or beliefs on the topic? I really want to know and would lvoe to speak with you.

Comment below.

Until next time,
XoXo~Trisha Trixie







Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The Shelf Apple

In the world I live in, most things in my life make me feel like I am living my dream.

Most things.

I am trying to build a fashion business.
I am sewing non stop and creating hair pieces left and right.
I model from time to time.
This part of life I love.
It is a struggle however financially and that is where I think part of my frustration comes from.
My man is helping me financially and I think it is putting a strain on our relationship.

But that is not the only thing interfering.

I feel depressed when it comes to our relationship. I am not fully happy. I feel like he focuses too much on video games and work and I am reliving a nightmare of a life that I lived with my ex boyfriend and most especially my ex husband. I think he feels like I SHOULD be happy because I have him and he is helping me. But to me there is more to life than money. I thought I was more to him than work and video games, but I am beginning to wonder.

My man did all he could to have me in his life and kept welcoming me back and kept begging me to be in his life. But here I am and have been for two SOLID years now and I feel like the "rut" has settled in and he has taken for granted the amazing and wonderful person I am. I don't mean that to be boastful, but I know who I am and what type of woman I am. He knows it too if he thought back to how hard her fought to have me in his life. It feels like a the same old story, just a different book cover. Everyone thinks I am so great and ooh ahh how they want me in their life. But then once they have me, it is like they caught a great fish and deicded to tack it to a wall like a trophy. Hell I would even be glad if I was a Trophy Girlfriend but you have to be willing to show off your trophy once in awhile and well, since he never wants to do anything or go anywhere or be social, that never happens.

Yet instead he lives in a world of games and work.

Supposedly he "de-stresses" this way. I am sorry but when I am begging for attention and I HAVE told him how I feel over and over again I begin to wonder if I am being taken for granted and he has lacked the ability to see me in front of him anymore. I have cried tears begging him to put me first and to be with me. Why am I not the "de-stresser"? I am getting tired of the tears and tired of his M.O. Tired of having to sound like a broken record so little by little I say nothing. Then I remember when I said "nothing" before and how NOT well that worked out for me in my past life.

I was looking at this piece of art today about how Girls are Like Apples on a Tree.

A quote from Pete Wentz

"Girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree...”








If the boy climbs the tree sure that is great, but I have realized in my "disney-esque" beliefs as my friends call it, that there is a realization with Disney Princesses too. Life after the "Happy Ending" is what real life is about. At least those ladies got married. Not to liken myself to a cow, but that old addage of "Why buy the cow when you get the milk for free" seems to be in my mind, but the only part I feel lately like a cow is more like an OX having to take care and tend to everything without even so much as a shiny shoe.

I got to thinking, a lot of good it does though to go through all the effort, to go through a bunch of broken ladders, go up the ladder, climb to get the best apple and leave it on a shelf. Wouldn't that apple begin to sour and wilt away? It wouldn't be a good apple after awhile. How would it become a great apple again if this happened?


I am still trying to figure that out. But I know for now... I feel like the apple got picked and now, since the boy got the apple, he hasn't really seen how shiny and wonderful it really is since he put it on the shelf.

~Trisha Trixie