Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish for your health?


Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish for your health? is the question for this Wednesday. I love these days by the way. I have them marked on my Google Calendar with a Weekly Repeat and a Never end date.  I hope they never do end. They are so insightful and so helpful. I would love to add new friends to my wishcasting days so if you are new here, check out the link to Ridler Studios up above and take time out of your busy week each Wednesday to become a Wishcaster like the rest of us. Then share your wish on Jaimie's site and check out what other Wishcasters wishes are as well.

So now that I bore my soul on Wishcasting :).....

I am 41 this year. I don't look it and I rarely act it. But sadly I am starting to feel it. But for most of my life I have always had one health issue or another. When I was a teen I was always sick. The doctors said it was because I didn't eat right, but what they didn't know was that I was anorexic. It affected my body in negative ways like being sick often, not having strong bones, and not being able to have a child properly when the time came at 19 years old.


In addition to that I was a Pointe Ballerina and my back and my feet have been a mess ever since. The old I am getting the more and more my back ache and last year I had some serious issues and went on Tramadol and bought a Tens Unit. There are days that I feel as though I can barely move but a few minutes on the Tens unit makes it better along with heat and maybe a pill (though I hate pills and would rather do without them)

I wish my back didn't hurt so badly.

Then there is the Migraine issue. Since my children were little I have had migraines. When they were young I was so incapacitated I couldn't even move. I knew I would get these days so I would prepare ahead of time little bowls of cereal with saran wrap on them and little cups of milk with lids on them. When I would have my bad days I would tell them, lying from the couch "You have to make your own cereal today" and they would bring their little cups and bowls into the living room where I had a cartoon or dvd on for them and take care of themselves this way when they were only 4 and 3 years old.

Last year I progressively started having more and more migraines again. I was having 4-6 migraines a week. Yes I said a week. I saw a neurologist and he prescribed some things to try and we settles on Topriamate for the nighttime and Meloxicam for the day and Sumatriptan when I had a sever attack as well as a Sumstriptan shot pack to give myself an injection if it got sever so I didn't have to go to the hospital. They get better and I decrease my meds and then they get worse and I take the meds again. Partially I have no insurance so I can't afford them and do what I can without them.

After I left an old apartment I was living in they got a bit better but they are starting up again and now I am thinking the weather is not helping as well of course with stress of starting a new business and a Non-Profit, not knowing where to live and bouncing around from place to place could be a factor, ya think? :)

I worry what will happen to me if something sever went wrong. What if I have an aneurism? Who will take care of me? What if my back severely goes out and I can't move anymore and am laid up like my mother was? How will I function? Will I lose my vitality if these things were to happen to me?

I wish I didn't have any migraines.

I hop and bounce and dance around when I am feeling well and for the most part no one knows anything about these ailments. I don't walk around telling everyone my health woes so not many people know. My mother always lived through the pain and I have learned to do the same. Until I absolutely have to I don't want to be still. I want to move. I will never understand those that allow the minor ailments of life to bring them down. I refuse to allow that to happen. Life is too short. I will find a way to live life and live through the pains I have.

I have slowed down. I am not getting any younger. I still have fun and move and shake and enjoy pleasure.

I think to a funny clip from Monty Python and leave that with you. 

What do I wish for my health?

To not be Dead yet and gettin betta!