Thursday, June 30, 2011

"Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to take a break from?"

Funny you should ask on


because in the effort to live the life, that I am learning from Soul Restoration 2, that sometimes we need to Sacrifice things to make room for other things we TRULY want. My Wish comes to me with that in mind-

 I am taking a break from Facebook. 


Not doing away with. Not getting rid of. Just taking small breaks and not spending so much time Living in Facebook. I want to Live in the Real World. Read on to know why...
(Wishcasters can stop here to comment if you'd like or read if you have time)

Recently, because of my own slipped foot, I stuck my foot in my mouth. Yep. Open mouth, insert foot 100% What happened as a result of this was chaos and drama and overreactions and deluge or so it felt like deluge.

 Because I took Soul Restoration 1 I am now a different person than I was before. Without realizing it I have become Stronger and Softer at the same time and I didn't know it. I even wrote about it over and over on my blog because being that meant so much to me. 
After reading those I even found one from a very long time...in 2006 where being softer was even a Goal for me then. 

But all this time I didn't know how. Brave Girls-Soul Restoration taught me how.And yet, even in one of my last post for SR I said I have become Stronger and Softer, but as you and I both know things are fleeting and just because we acquire something new, learning it good enough to keep up those new learned behaviors are the hardest part.

Where I am getting at (sorry if I am rambling) is that until two days, I didn't know I had really, TRULY accomplished being Strong and Softer. I knew I had learned it in SR1. I new at that time I had become that. But until this Filet of Sole , and I am not talking fish here okay, experience-it hadn't truly really hit me.

~Until I stuck my foot in my mouth by posting a comment in the SR Facebook Group. I am only  human. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. Sue me. (Please don't though, I don't need any more drama)Once I explained my "foul" sadly the drama didn't stop and I ended up getting further upset. I just kept reading the comments and trying to make it better and then the comments got worse and I ended up bawling my eyes out and weeping on my futon. Then the phone call happened. The leader of the group called to see how I was and of course, that incited MORE tears. She calmed me down and I felt a bit better. Like a doo doo head I got back on Facebook again only to feel more sadness. So I left the Facebook Group and threw myself down on my futon to cry.

...And then it happened.

 REALITY set in....

As I lie there on my bed crying getting comfort from the Pink Fuzzy and  the thought of someone who really cared about me, I thought about him and the leader of the group and the real crisis here...

Guess what? There was none. I mean yeah I said something that hurt people. Yeah I said something that scared people. But UH, Hello, It was a Comment on Facebook, people, I mean really. I knew that he would say this, my counselor would help me see this and the leader of the group kind of even sees it that way.  I am not trying to make light of the comment. I again am sorry for the foot in mouth incident, but I apologized and I am Not perfect I am human. 
I stopped crying and went to sleep. 

The next morning I said to myself "You are a Brave Girl. You are Stronger than this. Be Real about this. Move on Anyway, just like Melody taught you. You are still loved and cherished by many many many people. Those who know you love you. Those who cannot accept you for your weakness as well as your strengths don't need to be in your life. This will blow over in time.It will be okay one day."

It helped me see how far I have come. I AM, I REALLY AM Stronger and Softer! I am so proud of where I have landed and how I have progressed. 

Then the second Reality set in.

I spend too much time on Facebook. I care too much about what happened in Facebook. Facebook is not Real Life. IT is Facebook. I need to take a break from Facebook. Melody is taking a break. Dani is taking a break. I need to take a break too and not spend so much time on it. Perhaps now, NOW is the time to take a break from SR Facebook Group. 

So, I I cannot nor do not desire to Quit Facebook Cold Turkey and leave it from my life forever. I do not want to stop being on it, for even a week. But I do see through all this that I need to make some Sacrifices and not living my life in Facebook is one of them. Melody talks of Time Wasters and I admit YES that IS ONE OF THEM!!

(You can pick your mouth up off the floor now)

I am taking the time now to clean out all my groups that I don't need. This way I don't get sucked in later for things that are useless or pointless. When I first started to do this I saw that I am a part of 364 Groups on FB! Holy Heavens why?!?!? I have no clue.  Except that I got sucked in to that time waster and  am removing the groups I don't need. Take the time now, to save the time later. I am going to do that with my pages and all things this week and little by little ween myself away from being on FB so much.

Last night was my first start. I came home from my meeting and stayed off for a few hours. But I got sucked in on my Itouch. I am trying to figure our how to handle the timing of that as when I should and shouldn't' get on my Itouch to check FB and comment, but for now, my biggest plight is getting on the BIG or MAIN computer. So I am thinking I may LIMIT myself to the just the Itouch and for only a certain time or certain amount of time like no more than 15 minutes or something.

I am going to "work on" (remember I don't like to say try) not getting on before bed because I know from past studies that electronic devices such as computering, tv-movie watching, etc does not allow your brain to fully relax and prepare your brain for proper sleep. I am going to replace that with reading, music and relaxing  things like going for a walk or sitting outside on the patio listening to the sounds of summer.

I wish to back away from Living in Facebook...I wish to live in the Real World more! :)
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