"Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to take a break from?"

Funny you should ask on

"Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to take a break from?" 

because in the effort to live the life, that I am learning from Soul Restoration 2, that sometimes we need to Sacrifice things to make room for other things we TRULY want. My Wish comes to me with that in mind-

 I am taking a break from Facebook. 

Not doing away with. Not getting rid of. Just taking small breaks and not spending so much time Living in Facebook. I want to Live in the Real World. Read on to know why...

(Wishcasters can stop here to comment if you'd like or read if you have time)

Recently, because of my own slipped foot, I stuck my foot in my mouth. Yep. Open mouth, insert foot 100% What happened as a result of this was chaos and drama and overreactions and deluge or so it felt like deluge.

 Because I took Soul Restoration 1 I am now a different person than I was before. Without realizing it I have become Stronger and Softer at the same time and I didn't know it. I even wrote about it over and over on my blog because being that meant so much to me. 

After reading those I even found one from a very long time...in 2006 where being softer was even a Goal for me then. 

But all this time I didn't know how. Brave Girls-Soul Restoration taught me how.And yet, even in one of my last post for SR I said I have become Stronger and Softer, but as you and I both know things are fleeting and just because we acquire something new, learning it good enough to keep up those new learned behaviors are the hardest part.

Where I am getting at (sorry if I am rambling) is that until two days, I didn't know I had really, TRULY accomplished being Strong and Softer. I knew I had learned it in SR1. I new at that time I had become that. But until this Filet of Sole , and I am not talking fish here okay, experience-it hadn't truly really hit me.

~Until I stuck my foot in my mouth by posting a comment in the SR Facebook Group. I am only  human. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. Sue me. (Please don't though, I don't need any more drama)Once I explained my "foul" sadly the drama didn't stop and I ended up getting further upset. I just kept reading the comments and trying to make it better and then the comments got worse and I ended up bawling my eyes out and weeping on my futon. Then the phone call happened. The leader of the group called to see how I was and of course, that incited MORE tears. She calmed me down and I felt a bit better. Like a doo doo head I got back on Facebook again only to feel more sadness. So I left the Facebook Group and threw myself down on my futon to cry.

...And then it happened.

 REALITY set in....

As I lie there on my bed crying getting comfort from the Pink Fuzzy and  the thought of someone who really cared about me, I thought about him and the leader of the group and the real crisis here...

Guess what? There was none. I mean yeah I said something that hurt people. Yeah I said something that scared people. But UH, Hello, It was a Comment on Facebook, people, I mean really. I knew that he would say this, my counselor would help me see this and the leader of the group kind of even sees it that way.  I am not trying to make light of the comment. I again am sorry for the foot in mouth incident, but I apologized and I am Not perfect I am human. 

I stopped crying and went to sleep. 

The next morning I said to myself "You are a Brave Girl. You are Stronger than this. Be Real about this. Move on Anyway, just like Melody taught you. You are still loved and cherished by many many many people. Those who know you love you. Those who cannot accept you for your weakness as well as your strengths don't need to be in your life. This will blow over in time.It will be okay one day."

It helped me see how far I have come. I AM, I REALLY AM Stronger and Softer! I am so proud of where I have landed and how I have progressed. 

Then the second Reality set in.

I spend too much time on Facebook. I care too much about what happened in Facebook. Facebook is not Real Life. IT is Facebook. I need to take a break from Facebook. Melody is taking a break. Dani is taking a break. I need to take a break too and not spend so much time on it. Perhaps now, NOW is the time to take a break from SR Facebook Group. 

So, I I cannot nor do not desire to Quit Facebook Cold Turkey and leave it from my life forever. I do not want to stop being on it, for even a week. But I do see through all this that I need to make some Sacrifices and not living my life in Facebook is one of them. Melody talks of Time Wasters and I admit YES that IS ONE OF THEM!!

(You can pick your mouth up off the floor now)

I am taking the time now to clean out all my groups that I don't need. This way I don't get sucked in later for things that are useless or pointless. When I first started to do this I saw that I am a part of 364 Groups on FB! Holy Heavens why?!?!? I have no clue.  Except that I got sucked in to that time waster and  am removing the groups I don't need. Take the time now, to save the time later. I am going to do that with my pages and all things this week and little by little ween myself away from being on FB so much.

Last night was my first start. I came home from my meeting and stayed off for a few hours. But I got sucked in on my Itouch. I am trying to figure our how to handle the timing of that as when I should and shouldn't' get on my Itouch to check FB and comment, but for now, my biggest plight is getting on the BIG or MAIN computer. So I am thinking I may LIMIT myself to the just the Itouch and for only a certain time or certain amount of time like no more than 15 minutes or something.

I am going to "work on" (remember I don't like to say try) not getting on before bed because I know from past studies that electronic devices such as computering, tv-movie watching, etc does not allow your brain to fully relax and prepare your brain for proper sleep. I am going to replace that with reading, music and relaxing  things like going for a walk or sitting outside on the patio listening to the sounds of summer.

I wish to back away from Living in Facebook...I wish to live in the Real World more! :)

~~

Archive of Strong Softer Blogs here:

http://adgb.blogspot.com/2011/03/wishcasting-wednesday-how-do-you-wish_30.html 

http://adgb.blogspot.com/2011/04/wishcasting-wednesday-what-do-you-wish.html

http://adgb.blogspot.com/2011/02/finality-of-it-all.html

http://adgb.blogspot.com/2006/02/life-in-06.html 

Believe...

I was going through my old YT Videos and found this video and found it fitting for what we are doing in Soul Restoration 2. It is not easy to take those hard leaps in life. It is not easy to Believe in ourselves no matter weather we have been fed lies or not, it simply is not easy. I put this video together with the music from Ill Divo and Celine Dion, I Believe in You a long time ago.

It was actually created for someone very special in my life to let him know that no matter what, that no matter what challenges face him, that no matter how frustrated he gets, that no matter how hows don't seem to appreciate his work, that no matter how scared he is, that no matter how much things change in life, with us or for us, that I always will believe in him and I still mean that to this day...to him and to all of you my fellow readers and bloggers.

I truly feel that all it takes for us to move forward in life is for someone to Believe in Us. I feel that that truly helps us Believe in Ourselves.

For the Lyrics to the song, read under the video





  

Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find you light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriere
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve

Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix
En toi
Suis la lumiere
N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je croix que je croix que je croix
Que je croix
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me to
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

No More Holding Back Brave Girl-Time for Fashion!

Some of you may know that something I truly love is Fashion! I love to Model it and have modeled in the past and most recently helped out the Junior League of Des Moines at FashionEASTA 2010 February and was in The Juice September 2010. I modeled years ago for Teen and Seventeen magazine and have wanted to take it to the next level. I have been designing as a hobby and finally for my Pink Project for Summer of Color took a leap and finally made my table set and some ideas so I can finally have a booth somewhere. I have been scrawling designs here and I started a site that I am still working on called Fashion Femmes Le Boutique and there but this was the first step in the right direction.

Two Christmases ago I worked for Aerie as a Window Dresser to get a feel for Visual Merchandise and learned that really wasn't my savor. In researching Fashion Degrees I learned most companies won't even consider you unless you have at LEAST 2 years retail. Well, at first when the gig with Aerie didn't work I thought that was my Roadblock and I let it stop me. But not anymore....

I have my own business and I don't have a Marketing Degree! I design Websites for a living and I am self taught. I have learned through life you don't HAVE TO do things the way everyone else does them you know!! So who says I can't be a Stylist without two years of Retail?!? Most of what I learned in what I am doing now is two fold-Experience based and who I knew. Why shouldn't Fashion be any different? In fact it is probably MORE SO that!!

So tonight I took a leap...I signed up to be a Designer Liaison at Omaha Fashion Week in August!! http://omahafashionweek.com/volunteer/

"Designer Liaison:
This person is the ‘go-to’ person for designers and models.  Each Designer Liaison will be responsible for two designers and their creative team, which includes designer’s assistants, models and stylists.  Your job is to provide security, trouble shoot any issues that come up in the dressing room and make sure your people don’t miss their cues."

Doesn't that just sound fab?!?!


I thought so too!

In Sr we talked about Roadblocks and Landmines today and I decided tha tI was not going to let that bring me down or get in my way so I leapt! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE! So, now it is just a matter of time to wait and see what happens and see if I get an opportunity to volunteer doing something I think I will love!!

WOOT WOOT!

While I am working-Check this out!

I created some new pages on my other site that mainly shows my artwork. I like to Create and I thought by adding pages to the Art Site it might make it easier to see all the fun Art things I have been doing.

I am busily working away this weekend on my Three, yes THREE classes and so while I finish working go over and Check Out my other sites while you wait.

I also wrote a poem this week so I added my Poetry Site as well.

http://art-a-day-keeps-the-crazies-away.blogspot.com/p/brave-girl-art.html

http://art-a-day-keeps-the-crazies-away.blogspot.com/p/in-sun-pieces-of-art.html

http://poetryheart.blogspot.com/

and for fun I added the Other Blogs I write to as well if you are interested...

http://nnwm-trishatrixie.blogspot.com/2009/11/i-remember.html I did this one for a Contest Last Year. It is a Short Story Memoir about me and my mother

http://ttandco.blogspot.com/ This one is for my Business

http://wehadafastcar.blogspot.com/ and this one is one I am just starting to write on about a dear friend of mine and me and our crazy laughs and adventures

Enjoy Blog Reading while you wait for more exciting info on Trisha Trixie!

What do you wish for this summer?

The week got away from me but I wanted to make sure I still did my Wishcasting from Jaime Ridler because I really love it's question:

What do you Wish for This Summer?

I wish for Perfect Weather
I wish for the scent of Fresh Cut Grass
I wish for blades of grass or sand beneath my toes
I wish for Arts and Crafts
I wish for Peace and Harmony
I wish for wondrous books, blogs and other to tantalize my eyes to Read
I wish for Love to work it's way back to me
I wish for the Universe to get back in line
I wish for Summer Dresses and Skirts
I wish for adorable hair and non melting makeup
I wish for Soul Learning and Strengthening with my fellow Brave Girls
I wish for a Summer of Color and fun In the Sun
I wish for mouth watering and thirst quenching goodness
I wish for growing plants from my new garden
I wish for beautiful flowers that vine to make me an amazing hideaway
I wish to move forward
I wish others to move forward
I wish for a Miracle
I wish for Chance
I wish to be a Goddess
I wish for my Business Plans to work smoothly
I wish for my Dreams to become Reality
I wish for my Goals to become Action
I wish for healthier living
I wish to get back to Fly Lady
I wish for my words to flow from my hand
I wish for my art to be an amazing creation
I wish to seek out the Live I want to Live
I wish to live each moment
I wish to be

and if I wish the wishes of my heart wether they be real or true...
I wish for fairies and unicorns and good witches and pixie dust....
bubbles and twinkling lights and I wish a wish for you....
I wish for tree swings and fireflies...bonfires and smores...
I wish for meadows of flowers...
and the wish of your hearts galore...

of all the things I wish the most...I wish for simple bliss...

Mission Statement, Permission Slip and Soul Living

I still have not yet had the chance to type up my Mission Statement but I do have it done! I took teh time while I was on the farm to really think about things and what I wanted out of life.I covered my little book to match my big on and got to writing on it. I also gave myself Permission to do things for me! It's ME TIME BABY!

My Official Permission Slip

My homework all checked off to the left to answer my questions...

My Inspiration to relax and think...

I took my Brave Girl Truth Book I made and wrote some truths down as well

I made a page that was just about SR Truths about Life

Then I took other truths and cut them out for my covers

This is actually the back

This is my Front Cover

MY Mary Englebriet"Shout it from the Rooftops" image right up front!

My Mission Statement in my Mini Lined Journal

Lives Get One

Life is Just a Chair of Bowlies

Life This Way..(other sign says) No Longer An Option

I'm Not Crazy and Neither are You

One of my favorite blogger's Normal is a Setting on the Dryer went away but came back. In true KSM fashion, speaking her mind, being fearless and courageous despite where it may land her in she writes a blog about being Crazy and I had to check but I am not sure, but I think I have never laughed so hard. I even snorted. Why, you ask did this blog elude such a response from me?

Because I have been there.

Some Truths About Me That Others Might Think Are Crazy:

1. I truly did not accept that my father was dead for 3 years. The kicker, no adult thought this should be a concern.
2. No matter how horrible a relationship is or followed the path of the abuse I suffered in life, I kept going after the same man that resembled those type of abusers or kept putting myself in a co-dependent relationship ( Doing the same thing over and over expecting different result.-Definition CRAZY no?)
3. I secretly desire to have friendships out of my reach. There are people I meet or people I meet through other people and yearn to get to know them and friend them. But I know no matter how much I yearn for it, going after it would be crazy so I let it go and just keep yearning, though at times it really does make me sad. I feel like I have lost someone I don't even know.
4. I talk to my cat and always have talked to my cats. I truly feel they talk back and I have trained them to do many things or they have learned on their own. My cat Dude talks to me all the time and flushes the toilet after he goes in the litter box.
5. When I'm alone I dance silly and erratic and crazy all around the house and when I am alone in my car I like to sing to the radio or CD at the top of my lungs.
6. I am a Serial Entrepreneur. I head this statement recently at a seminar and though, funny they are talking about me. I have had 6 business previously and that is not counting the two I have now for my Social Media and my Homeless Non-Profit.
7. I grew up in a Metaphysical home, my father was Baptist, my Grandmother was Pentecostal and most of my friends were Non-Denominational. I was allowed to have my own free beliefs and do so. I believe in Crystals, Crystal Balls, the power of Candles, Aura's, Energy, Taoism, Buddism, and still have some lingering thoughts and ideas from when I was Mormon for 10 years. To most people, this way of Religion or Spiritualism is off. In teh end I feel I am a Christian and have open views.
8. I believe in freedom and Equality for my LGBT friends. I don't know how that fares with religion but I don't care. Asking someone if they are Gay or other is like asking someone if they are wearing their underwear. Depending on who  I am talking to, this view can be great or that I am nuts.
9. I love Social Media and fell in love with it the minute it hit the Internet. I love Facebook the most and my friends will often ask a rhetorical question only to answer themselves which makes me wonder if THEY are crazy. They say "What are doing?" then they will answer themselves "Facebook?" I respond "What else would I be doing?" 
10. If I could, I would Fly though I am afraid of heights. I love Fairies, Butterflies, and anytime I have had the chance to be mid air it was amazing to me. I mean fly as in me and my person flying not sitting in an airplane. I mean jump and Fly. That would be so kewl. ;)

No it is not the 25 list that she came up, but I don't want to be a copy cat. I am sure I could go on. People tell me I am crazy all the time. They say "You're crazy, you know that?" and I respond "I know!" in my high pitch voice and cute smirk smile.

But in reality, I know I am NOT crazy.  I think differently than others and that either enlightens them or scares the heck out of them. The rest see myself in them or them in me and that scares them. The remainder? WEll, maybe they are the crazy ones.

No, KSM, I am not Crazy and neither are you.

I am the Baby

My Business Cards for Business I owned

My Aura Stones

Dude Kitty

Cottage Garden Studios: 100 Mile Giveaway.....

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Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to begin?

It's that famed Wishcasting Wednesday with Jaime Ridler and the question today is:

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to begin?

Usually for me Spring is the time of Beginnings, but this year, things have been so different for me, so fresh and exciting and new, why should this be any different. This year, Summer is the moment of Beginnings.

My Beginnings have just started:

Monday I started a new course called Summer of Color. From now for the next 10 weeks we will be exploring different colors with whatever art forms we desire to expand our minds with.

In addition to that class I also am beginning some other art classes I found and am considering exploring those as well.

Tuesday I started Soul Restoration 2 Living the Truths. This is a continuation of Soul Restoration 1 I took at the beginning of the year. This I think will help me along the way to begin again to stand up for myself and remember the truths and not allow those lies to creep back in.

This summer I am Beginning to make some changes in my life with my businesses and my non-profit that could affect what I do with them, and my life for the future.

I also began something else. I began a Garden. I have been wanting to stat one and so I began a Patio Container Garden and I am Beginning the making of an above ground Garden in the backyard as well. I have Tomatoes, Peppers, Herbs, Morning Glory flowers and something to enjoy the outdoors in the morning and late evenings.

I began making the most out of my room and made it into a Home Office/Studio and began cleaning and organizing it to make it something special putting my art desk and my work desk near each other and adding my inspirational quotes and plaques near it.

I think I am on my way to some great beginnings...

Now I think I am in need of some "sustainings" :)

In the Pit by Another's Hand

TRUTH

Did you know that you can get thrown into a pit by another's hand? That true. It DOES happen. You are surrounded by this pit and you are wondering

"How did I get here? I didn't do anything. I don't deserve this. I am innocent. I did not pity or despair myself here, yet I am here"

The story of Jospeh and the Amazing Techniolocr Dream coat Joseph did nothing to land himself in the pit..but he ended up there anyway...

Usually this happens by those closest to us. By our Family, or our Children, or our closest Friends and that pain is even harder to bear than if we had deserved to be in the Pit ourselves. We could and I think would eventually own up to our own reasons, but to be thrown into a pit by someone  can be heart wrenching Emotionally, Physically and Spiritually.

There are so many ways that can happen from  someone throwing us under the bus, divorce, separation, an addiction of any kind (even Co dependency can be an addiction), a fire, a flood, a tornado, an earthquake, troubles with our children, loss of someone, blamestorm from others, and the list goes on and on....

Remember that we can be strong and courageous. We can be brave and hold our head high. Know that our Higher Power, God or whatever you call him is there for us.

Above all...remember the Truth.

The old adage of the Truth will Set You Free...is true in and yet of itself.

Truth about the ticks marks of the things have and will happen to us in life will not go away. Sometimes, the Truth is owning up to the fact that people treat us the way we allow them to treat us. They may throw us in the pit or life might.

How we endure and enjoy the Journey is the most crucial to surviving.

For without cause they have hidden their net for me over a pit,
which they have dug without cause for my life,
my SOUL shall be joyful in the Lord,
It shall rejoice in his salvation.
~Psalm 35:7

Romance Wants/Needs

I want a man who says I am beautiful not hot,
who doesn't care if I am cute or sexy
who just cares that I am me,
who sees I am beautiful on the inside and out,
who will fight for me when I need fighting for,
who will let me stand up for myself when I want to,
who supports me in my ideas, dreams, goals, aspirations,and  desires even if they be far fetched,
who helps me while my life is Unfolding and while I am Learning to Grow Up
someone who allows me to be a Goddess and even more so encourage me to do so
a person who lets me explore who I am through Wishing, Dreaming, and Creating,
A person who allows me to search into my Soul and isn't afraid of the outcome,
yet welcomes it,
who loves my silliness and loves it when I skip, jump or dance ,
who showers me with affection by giving me gifts and cards, buying me my favorite candy bar or remembering what my favorite cereal is, complementing me or thanking me or acknowledging 100 times if need be thank you for taking out the trash, putting away the dishes or doing the kitty litter,
a man who,
understands my Love Language (9 in Gifts & Acknowledgement and Praise)
lets me go to my Cave when I need, like some Venutians need to do, to those rare times that I actually have used all my words and don't want to talk to anyone anymore
or perhaps really do want to sit in silence
or walk in in the park
or sit on the beach
or on a park bench and have him run his fingers through my hair
or brush a piece of it gently over my ear,
and a man who
who allows me over talk at other times
when he is tired of listening
and may be overhwlemed
and doesn't really want to listen to anyone anymore
but because he loves me
will listen to me,
is understanding as I try to put my life back together and as others gain Peace from Broken Pieces
who gets that I an an emotional person
I am not an emotional roller coaster
I am emotional
and with great passion
comes great emotion,
someone who is strong, confident, secure, trustworthy and mature
someone intelligent, unique, forward thinker, driven, motivated, willing to leap
someone not afraid to take chances
someone who has dreams, goals, aspirations and  desires
and someone who isn't afraid to go after them
or who is actively moving in a  forward motion toward it,
someone who puts me above all else
besides God of course
but above all believes in a higher power & desires to lead our home with strong hands & gentleness in his heart

Yes, this is what I want want. But I feel this it is more than that. I feel this is what I need to survive. I don't feel it is too big a list. Because I was told that Barbie and Ken are plastic and not real. If you have impossible dreams it will be impossible to ever meet them. I do not for a minute think I am Barbie and I am not looking for Ken.

I don't feel this list is idealistic. This is Realistic.

I am being realistic. I am finally starting to be realistic. I am just seeing what I want. Looking for it. And not settling for anything less.

Welcome back to me. Trisha. Getting ready for Soul Restoration II-Living the Truths.  Hold onto your hats people. I am getting my mojo back!

What is your Money Wish

I was traveling this week and then unpacking and recreating a new home office/studio for myself before I started two creative classes next week and missed the Wishcasting Wednesday. I have been trying to read and gather ideas and I just posted this on Jaime Ridler's Web Page.

She mentions on her site a CWAB-Crazy Wild Ass Budget and so I posted:

My CWAB (I say it like Crab but with a “w”) is 

Travel: Go to France Yearly
Fashion: Shop til I drop for every season yearly
Creative: Have all the latest Art supplies
Work/Home: Purchase a Warehouse, Renovate (like in Ghost) have Studio/Work home all together in a Downtown District or Village
Summer/Vacation Home: Along the beach anywhere
My mother: Provide for my mother-House, RV, living etc so she can enjoy life in retirement
Photography: Have the best SLR, Video cameras, and point and shoot cameras and all the zooms, stands, screens, shields and my own darkroom (again. I had one once)
Businesses: Enough to pay attorneys and get my Non-Profit up and running, train others and help others nationally
Dream Fun Career: Take my previous Modeling and Fashionista style to the next level and be a Personal Shopper for others, Stylist and KNOWN Fashionista in the Entertainment world and the globe :)
Money Fluffiness: Enough extra money to have all the debts paid off and to never have to worry about bills, things being taken away, bank accounts being levied, and enough to be fluffy (I have always used that term. IT means the fluff, like cotton candy, the fun stuff)
That is all I can think of for now…Thanks..that was fun

So, I guess what is my money wish? Well, I guess those!

I used to have other wishes when it came to money that always related to other people. But then, I realized how terribly unattainable they were, how the other person did not reciprocate the money wish, and how I wasn't sending anything out into the universe for me.


I am really  REALLY trying, working hard, this year to do things for me. Take care of me. Think of what is going to be best for me. I do so much for everyone else, and yet even still (look at some of my wishes) though to me that is still taking care of me though some of the things I am now choosing, doing and being in life are finally for me.

I think there comes a time in your life when you have to start thinking of yourself. If you don't take care of yourself, who will???

Exactly!

So, that's my money wish. What's yours?

What's it like to Stand Out?

If you have read my blogs before you know how much I love Jaime Ridler Studio's for inspiration. One of the things she asked this weekend really has compelled me tow rite about it. She asks this time " What's it like to stand out?"

It's scary.

But more and more I am learning that being Unique is Good. Being Different is Good. Being Different is Good.

Being Remarkable is better. Bland is boring. Conforming is boring. It does NOT get noticed.

 Average is average.

Take some time if you have it and watch this video from Seth Godin about Standing Out



He mentions the word:

Otaku (おたく / オタク^?) is a Japanese term used to refer to people with obsessive interest which  ends up resulting in those people then talking to others like their friends who also have those types of interest. I call these people "like-minded people".

I want to explore with you what it means to "Stand Out"

The Dictionary Definitions are:

1. to be distinctive or conspicuous

2. to refuse to agree, consent, or comply
3. to protrude or project
4. (Transport / Nautical Terms) to navigate a vessel away from a port, harbour, anchorage, etc.

a.  a person or thing that is distinctive or outstanding


What speaks to me the most is to be Distinctive, to Project and to be a person that is Outstanding! First it is about BEING that person. Though to be that person does not come easy. To be that person you need to do the other...you need to refuse to agree, consent or comply and you need to navigate away from the port or away from what others are doing. That is not easy for others to do. It is safer for most to stay in the harbor with the other ships. Moor your anchor in the harbor and stay close to dry land, right?

Well for most I could see how that is appealing. Yet, for me it is enlightening to explore what is out there. Standing out is exhilarating and frightening at the same time!

I hate heights. I remember in High School when we had to do the High Dive for PE. I love the water but hate the high dive. We didn't have to do anything fancy, just jump in from the highest diving board. I remember standing on the edge of that board feeling scared out of my wits. I stepped off and through the air I could barely breathe, I landed in the water and felt surrounded by the waves crashing around me. I went down to the bottom and pushed off and came to the top of the water for air, as I reach the surface of the water I was smiling ecstatically and was giggling. My instructor said "I thought you were scared?" I said "I was, but the whole experience combined felt so exhilarating that I have to do it again!"

To me that is what it is like to stand out. In High School I was quite shy. Yes. It is true. I know hard to believe. But a dear friend believed in me and encouraged me to let others see me. He encouraged me to STAND OUT and show the world who I was and what I had to offer. You know what? I was scared as heck. You know what else? I am so glad I did. I didn't know then much about what I wanted to offer the world. I was 16 years old! I knew I loved life. I knew I wanted to make a difference. I knew I wanted to change the world any way I could. I knew I wanted to live life with every breath I could. I knew I didn't want to conform. I knew I wanted to be allowed to be me and I wanted that to be ok.

The even better thing about that time in my life was that I had a few friends who were there with me as I started standing out. This one girl was fearless and just told you like it was. She was by my side all through Junior High and High School. We went to Proms together when no one else would ask us and she would stand up for me when others were mean to me for standing out. Not everyone is lucky enough to have friends like these I know. The funny thing is for years I always thought I didn't have any close friends until I started looking back on my life realizing how much a part of my life these people played in it.

To stand out means being ready for ridicule. It means being Brave. It means being Courageous. It means being strong enough to take the blows because I tell you, they will come. It may mean being lonely. I say MAY because I feel these are two types of Standing Out...the Cool Kind and the Other Kind.

I was not the Cool Kind. I didn't have the popular clothes or the fancy cars. I didn't have the jock boyfriend or the popular friends. I didn't have all the cool classes and hang out with the all the cool groups. I didn't do all the cool things.

Nope. I read Psychology Today and House Beautiful Magazine through High School. I was in Pointe Ballet, Ice Skating, Gymnastics, Modeling and Etiquette Classes right after school and when I wasn't dong that I was in ROP (Regional Occupation Program) for Cosmetology or Banking (Senior Year). I was the only girl in my Basic Computer Class. I took Horticulture, Choir, HandBells and other Geeky classes.

My mother was into Metaphysics and Hypnotherapy and so bringing friends home was NOT the norm. I once brought a friend home and when we walked in my mother was doing a session for a woman with the curtains drawn and candles lit with funky music on and the girl quickly turned around and bolted backwards and said LATER and I never saw her after that.  I took Spiritual Training and read books like How to Win Friends and Influence People or The Artist's Way very young while my friends were hanging out at Shakey's Pizza or the Mad Greek across the Street from where I lived on Beach Boulevard.

I STOOD OUT alright, but then I wasn't sure I wanted to....It was great training for later in life...

Now, I STAND OUT because I am willing to. I desire to make a difference. I do not want to be a Cow or a SHEEP and be like the herd. I want to be Unique and Different and be my OWN Authentic Self.

What's it like to Stand Out?

IT'S EXHILARATING!

More on the Promises Book

I posted some images on the Promises book on my Art a Day Blog but this blog I feel is my More in Depth blog so I wanted to say more about it over here.

Many of the Brave Girls from Soul Restoration were left with a final task to do a Promises Book for themselves. I think it was left very much to each person's discretion and thus left many people feeling uneasy because there was no guidance or direction.The way I understood it was that it was an ongoing thing and it did NOT have to be done by any certain time. It did NOT have to be done before SR2 it was something for us to do at our own free will and time. So that is what I have done. I use this book to help recenter me. To ground me. To bring be back to my lessons that I learned in SR1. To reclaim the Truths and Promises to myself to be True to Myself and not listen to those lies. To think positive thoughts about myself.

I have decided to take a leap and share these Promises with you. To the 33 followers who show themselves. To the other readers who don't openly say they are following, but I know you are there, to the anonymous followers and friends and the new ones who maybe, just maybe this will touch and reach out to and make a difference in the life of another. I share this for you...as well as for me to reaffirm these Promises in my own mind and to help me remember them. :)

 Sometimes we slip and we forget to remember
that we don't have to be perfect
that it is ok if we slip
We often forget to remember
that this is really what life is...
a big journey
where we must
just keep trying
everyday
every single day
just keep trying
we must remember to remember
that we are here to learn
that we don't have to prove our worth
to anyone
ever
that it is ok
that we are clumsy
and it is ok
that we mess up
that we must be kind
to our clumsiness
and we must
get back up
when we mess up
and that little things matter
and that every person matters
that we EACH matter
...and that
what we each DO matters
...how we each LIVE our LIFE matters
...the words we say MATTER
YOU MATTER
I MATTER
Let's make the most of this beautiful life
Ready...
Set...
GO!

I will choose the Good News
I will do what it takes to feel joy each day
I will choose the people who see the very best in me
I will accept the kindness love and acceptance of others
I will stop to think about what I really really really want
(I will live my Truths)
(I will ignore the lies and listen for the truth)
I will stop to think about what I really really really love
I will remember the truth and ignore the lies
I will choose people who bring out the very best in me
I will turn to good things when difficult things happen
I will see myself the way I see others I deeply love
I will create boundries to protect and respect myself
I will spend time taking care of myself and honor that time
I will never settle for things that make me miserable
I will go where the peace is...in my heart and in my life

I will work toward having more
Nature
Music
Saying No
Fun
Acceptance
Prioritizing
Free Time
Art
Parties
Friendships Newness Beginnings Trust Quiet
Love Forgiveness
Rest Peace Happiness
Cooperation Kindness
Unconditional Love Hope
Study Patience Loyalty
Affection Hugs Kisses Communication
Service Seeking Seeing Awareness
Vacations Travel Adventure
Friends
Creativity
Baths
...in my life

To Focus on-
Romance (notice this is NUMBER NUMERO UNO#1)
Lifework Soulwork Soulplay
Bliss
Restoration
Freedom
Prayer God Relaxation
Good Meals
Asking Listening
Building Learning
Pretty Things
Pretty Clothes
Meditation Writing
Courage
Giving Loving
Spirituality
Good Days Smiles Laughter Dancing

(I will say I am happy I only have ONE of these pages not TWO)

I will work toward having Less in my life...

Emptiness
Abandonment
Chaos
Lonliness
Drama
Guilt
Shame
Prejudice
Stress
Settling
Feeling Stuck
Anxiety
Sorrow
Confusion
Isolation
Fear
Bad News
Sadness
Crying

I had the most fun on this page. I really let loose and got creative

I Promise
2
Create
Dwell in Possibility
Be a Free Spirt
Imagine

Truths:

• It is time to take a leap
• Your Possibilities are endless, It's true
• Unique is good, strange is good, peculiar is good, crazy ideas are good, YOU ARE GOOD!
• Your heart longings are messages to you. Listen to them...search for the truth wrapped up inside of them.
• Open the doors that feel right...even if you are afraid to open them.
• Wonderful things almost always take a lot of work..do the work.

I Promise

To remember I am Fabulous!

I Promise to Remember "Who" I am!

A Beautiful Soul!

I leave you with a You Tube video that came to mind this morning when I was thinking of gathering up my pictures...Remember this to yourself...

You give yourself...Promises Promises....

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish for your health?

 

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish for your health? is the question for this Wednesday. I love these days by the way. I have them marked on my Google Calendar with a Weekly Repeat and a Never end date.  I hope they never do end. They are so insightful and so helpful. I would love to add new friends to my wishcasting days so if you are new here, check out the link to Ridler Studios up above and take time out of your busy week each Wednesday to become a Wishcaster like the rest of us. Then share your wish on Jaimie's site and check out what other Wishcasters wishes are as well.

So now that I bore my soul on Wishcasting :).....

I am 41 this year. I don't look it and I rarely act it. But sadly I am starting to feel it. But for most of my life I have always had one health issue or another. When I was a teen I was always sick. The doctors said it was because I didn't eat right, but what they didn't know was that I was anorexic. It affected my body in negative ways like being sick often, not having strong bones, and not being able to have a child properly when the time came at 19 years old.


In addition to that I was a Pointe Ballerina and my back and my feet have been a mess ever since. The old I am getting the more and more my back ache and last year I had some serious issues and went on Tramadol and bought a Tens Unit. There are days that I feel as though I can barely move but a few minutes on the Tens unit makes it better along with heat and maybe a pill (though I hate pills and would rather do without them)

I wish my back didn't hurt so badly.

Then there is the Migraine issue. Since my children were little I have had migraines. When they were young I was so incapacitated I couldn't even move. I knew I would get these days so I would prepare ahead of time little bowls of cereal with saran wrap on them and little cups of milk with lids on them. When I would have my bad days I would tell them, lying from the couch "You have to make your own cereal today" and they would bring their little cups and bowls into the living room where I had a cartoon or dvd on for them and take care of themselves this way when they were only 4 and 3 years old.

Last year I progressively started having more and more migraines again. I was having 4-6 migraines a week. Yes I said a week. I saw a neurologist and he prescribed some things to try and we settles on Topriamate for the nighttime and Meloxicam for the day and Sumatriptan when I had a sever attack as well as a Sumstriptan shot pack to give myself an injection if it got sever so I didn't have to go to the hospital. They get better and I decrease my meds and then they get worse and I take the meds again. Partially I have no insurance so I can't afford them and do what I can without them.

After I left an old apartment I was living in they got a bit better but they are starting up again and now I am thinking the weather is not helping as well of course with stress of starting a new business and a Non-Profit, not knowing where to live and bouncing around from place to place could be a factor, ya think? :)

I worry what will happen to me if something sever went wrong. What if I have an aneurism? Who will take care of me? What if my back severely goes out and I can't move anymore and am laid up like my mother was? How will I function? Will I lose my vitality if these things were to happen to me?

I wish I didn't have any migraines.

I hop and bounce and dance around when I am feeling well and for the most part no one knows anything about these ailments. I don't walk around telling everyone my health woes so not many people know. My mother always lived through the pain and I have learned to do the same. Until I absolutely have to I don't want to be still. I want to move. I will never understand those that allow the minor ailments of life to bring them down. I refuse to allow that to happen. Life is too short. I will find a way to live life and live through the pains I have.

I have slowed down. I am not getting any younger. I still have fun and move and shake and enjoy pleasure.

I think to a funny clip from Monty Python and leave that with you. 

What do I wish for my health?

To not be Dead yet and gettin betta!

Brave Girls, Soul Restoration and the other Tools I now have in my life...

For some of you, you are already aware that I took Soul Restoration 1 with the Brave Girls Club. It started in January and my life has been set in motion ever since. I feel it was the greatest, best thing I could have ever, EVER done for myself. It got my mind straight. It made me think about what I really wanted. It opened my eyes to letting go of the past. It helped me see to my future. It gave me hope. It helped me see the Truth.

Now we are so VERY lucky to have SR2-Living the Truths

I just registered for the class and am super excited! I have been feeling that yearning for a week or so. I have not been connecting with my BG Tribe as much as I used to. I have been trying to do everything on my own again. I have not been connecting with the Truth or even wanting to see it. I have been standing at the gate of the roller coaster and sometimes I get on the ride and sometimes I stand there looking at it.

I catch myself every now and then doing this and reach for my tools. The tools I now have. The tools I received from Brave Girls, my Goddess Guidebook, Jaime Ridler Studios on how to Sparkle, Shine, be accountable for my Morning Pages in May, Wishcasting and so much more with her, The Art of Non-Conformity with Chris, Michelle Ward-When I Grow Up Coach, The Right Brain Business Plan with Jen Lee, I have learned so much in my current reading of Peace from Broken Pieces from Iyala Vanzant,
I read uplifting blogs like Create Every Day and look at art sites that make me smile like Jessica Swift or Balzer Designs and check into my RSS feed of Benign Objects as often as I can remember.

Although I enjoy all of those, I know I will get so much out of Soul Restoration 2. There is such a different connection there with my Brave Girl friends that I don't have with anyone else. I am really looking forward to it. Also, Melody and Kathy said you don't have to take SR1 first. I would encourage anyone who is searching, struggling, yearning to take SR 1 and SR2.

Your life will never be the same...it will be better!

Wishcasting Wednesday: What Dreams are you wishing for?

Guess what day it is? Yep! Wishcasting Wednesday with Jaime Ridler at Ridler Studios

I usually have my regular pictures posted above but today I went searching for other images that embody what I feel.

Today's wish casting is What Dreams are you wishing for? Hmmm. Well, I am a dreamer so that one is a hard one to answer.I have many dreams but I am also one to go after my dreams. I do wish for things but I am a doer as well so I don't sit around wishing for things. I had a friend who used to say

"If wishes were fishes we'd all have a fry." Meaning most people do make so many wishes that you could have a wish fry like a fish fry with them. I always thought that saying humorous.

I recently spoke to a few people about Dreams, Goals and Aspirations. My dreams are crucially important to me. I feel that others ought to have dreams as well. If one is not dreaming then you are not shooting for anything. You are not Casting. Casting those dreams into the universe is the first step I realized today.

If you think of Dreaming such as Casting like you would go fishing like my picture shows, then you are actually moving in a forward action. By doing this you are telling the universe, "I want that. I desire that.Help me get that. " 

The tools are the line you use to send out those Dreams. What is your line? What type of materials are you using? Is it a strong sturdy line? Or is a weak cheap string. Do you use a pole or a net? Do you have a stick or a fancy reel and pole to work with? What about bait? What kind of bait are you using to catch those dreams? What about a bag or a net to gather those dreams up once they are caught or arrive?

My father, Art, used to take me fishing when I was very young. We had a small creek on the back of the farm and our home was right up against Ledges Park as well and the creek or crick would lead you into Ledges and then out to the Des Moines River.  I remember one time in particular (odd because I was so young when he passed I have very few memories as it is, but this I recalled today). We walked through the farm woods, down to Ledges and out to the river. We walked through mud and my hair got stuck in some trees, but we had a good time laughing about it. Once we got there he walked around for a bit and then he picked up this branch. He took out his knife and widdled it a bit. Then he tied this string or line to it at the very end. He pulled out a handful of those old aluminum your soda pop can top. You remember, the kind that you used to put your finger into and pull the tab off the can to open it? Yeah those. He took one of them and wrapped the string around it through the loop so the tab part looked like a hook with it dangling there. Then he handed it to me and proudly said "THERE!" and to me it looked like the most amazing thing EVER! He instructed me how to dip it down into the water and just let it dangle. He said the fish were drawn to the Shinyness of the tab and they would come to it. He was right, not long after (I don't know when because as a youth I had no concept of time) a fish took my hook. He hollered "Lift it up! Lift it up out of the water!" I did and low and behold I had a fish on the end. He took the fish off the hook for me and I was so proud. LAter we cooked the fish and enjoyed every bite.That was a great day. Looking back it was an even greater lesson that I must have just embeded in my brain without even realizing it and have carried this lesson through my life.


Lesson:

• First you must enjoy the journey to get to where you need to cast your Dreams. 
• Sometimes you have to do some searching to find or at time create the right tools for you. 
• Make the tools fit for you if they don't fit on their own.
• The Shiny get the attention by doing nothing jsut by being Shiny. 
• Things are drawn to the Shiny and will automatically come to you if you are Shiny.
• Casting can be as simple as putting it out there. You don't have to throw your back out tossing it or throwing things far, you simply need to let it be what it is and wait for things to happen.
• When you get a bite, don't wait forever, don't hesitate, snatch it up. Lift it up! 
• Enjoy your results!

I don't know what each of you is wishing for. I don't know what you are dreaming. I don't know how you dream. This is how I Dream. I cast my Dreams by wishing. That is action one for me. Then I follow through. My dreams sometimes intertwine with my Goals, for for today I am solely going to share my Dreams with you..

My current Dreams are: 

• To go to Hawaii
• To be able to buy a NEW car (Hopefully a Yaris)
• To be able to find a man who wants to share his life with me that is all I am looking for (This does not mean married or engaged. Someone told me recently, you can give a ring to anyone, you choose who to share your life with)
• To go to Europe again but this time explore other areas like Holland, Ireland, and more
• To have a thriving Non-Profit for the Homeless to give back to others
• To Go to Greece with someone I love
• To have a Gallery showing of my Art/Photography work for me
• To continue to not just live, but savor and devour life every day

Wish on...As you all wish for yourself I wish for you also...