Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Sitting in my closet



I literally SAT in my closet today after I posted this video on Facebook. Then I called a friend. I haven't done that in awhile. In a very long while. Sat IN my closet. I thought it would be different. I thought I would be in a different place. 5 weeks in the class and I am feeling still spun. Not as spun as I was before but spun none the less. What is it that makes me feels like this when it comes to relationships?

Plus the class ending soon doesn't help.Week 5 and only one more week left. I really am saddened by this. I feel bittersweet. I love learning and growth. I want more. I want 10 or 20 more weeks. I need more internal healing. 6 weeks is not enough. I want to delve deeper into my soul. I want to learn more about me. I want to heal more. I am scared to let go of that too.

When it is time to let go, why is it so hard for us to just walk away?

I see visually in my mind a hand and fingers with another hand and fingers, both with each fingers barely touching each other neither wanting to let go of the other jsut touching the tip of the other...

that is what my life feels like ...

right now..

at this very moment